Morning Confusion.

Sunday morning, 6am. 3 hours sleep is all I seem to have needed. The current weather conditions are perfectly matched with my mood. The world is empty and I am walking among the emptiness with my emptilessness. I seem to prefer the world this way.
How can I possibly love the city life when there is no life in the city? No sign of any existence.. No movement, no sound, no people, no cars. Just a reflection of me, unaccompanied. Ironic to feel isolated in my room only to leave to be only seen.. by me.
Got to admit it looks cool outside. I think im more of a man who enjoys and appreciates peace.. but yet a man who most certainly oftenly needs company to be happy. Confused? I am.
I feel really good about myself today because I think I look really good if im honest. Like seriously.. I'm proud of how I look. But probably cause there is no one about to make any judgement or witness how I look. And not to sound in the least self centered or appear big headed about being happy with my appearance, I just haven't felt good about myself in a while. So I was happy to feel good. Hope there's no crime in that.
I've actually always been curious to ask a certain question just to see what general response I would get but never had the courage to approach a female incase of seemingly appearing to be the type that she will probably find.. slightly conceited. I just want to know from a women's perspective whether or not I look good. Like.. am I actually attractive? Would I be approved from a female's genuine interest?
Not that I would be interested for obvious reasons.. (Kieran knows)
But I think I just need reassurance and a bit of a confidence boost to feel generally good about myself.
In human I feel..
Hmm.. 

*Plays Charles Hamilton*